Frustration

I was afraid this would happen. I reach a significant milestone and get complacent. I haven't been religiously recording my food diaries. I ate way too many snacks last week. I've got a double-edged sword going right now. My sciatic nerve is causing major discomfort, but only when I walk/run. Not when I sit, lie down or even stand. Completely frustrating. So I couldn't run last week.

Instead, I did the exercise bike for an hour on Monday/Wednesday/Friday. They were good workouts, I thought. Increased from 14 miles to 15 miles to 16 miles finally by Friday. But I can just tell it's no replacement for running.

To top it off, I ran today. I felt no discomfort yesterday or this morning, so I went ahead and tried today. Well, about 1/4 of the way through, there it was. I said fuck it and decided to keep going. I hope I bounce back fast and doesn't hurt me the rest of the day.

Here's the thing: I know it was stupid. But I was afraid if I didn't run today, I might never run again. Last week was the first week I skipped running since I started on Nov. 11, and I know myself. Once I'm content with doing -- or in this case, not doing -- something, I'll continue that course of action basically forever.

So please, whatever higher power is listening, let my ass be back to normal as soon as possible.

Tuesday
Breakfast
Smoothie
1 cup oatmeal with 1 cup skim milk

Lunch
2 ham sandwiches

Dinner
1 container of vegetable soup (a mere 100 calories, which left me hungry, which explains my snacking binge below)


Snacks
8 oatmeal raisin cookies
1 nonfat yogurt

96 oz of water throughout the day

Wednesday
Breakfast
Smoothie
1 cup oatmeal with 1 cup of skim milk

Lunch
2 pieces of cheese pizza

Dinner
2 pieces of cheese pizza

Snacks
2 nonfat yogurts

96 oz of water throughout the day

Thursday
Lunch
One baked potato with chicken, salt, pepper and mustard

Dinner
Two ham sandwiches

Snacks
2 nonfat yogurts
1 string cheese

128 oz of water throughout the day


Friday
Breakfast
Smoothie
One cup oatmeal with 12 oz skim milk

Lunch
2 PB&J sandwiches

Dinner
1 six inch club sandwich with pepperjack cheese on jalapeno bread from subway

Snacks
1 nonfat yogurt

128 oz of water throughout the day

Saturday (Valentine's dinner with the wife at the Italian restaurant where we had our first date)
Dinner
One chicken breast
Two servings of spaghetti
One meatball
One meat ravioli (the non-fried kind)
Few bites of salad
Way more bread than I should have eaten
About a dozen peperoncinis

Sunday
Lunch
Three ham and cheese sandwiches
12 doritos
One large serving baked beans

Dinner
Half a cornish game hen
1/4 cup rice
1 serving asparagus
Some kind of shaved coffee dessert with hazelnut liquor

48 oz of water
30 oz of unsweet tea

64 oz of water throughout the day